My name is Lupin.
personal blog to keep up with art, fitness, friends, and stuff I love.
I do things under a fake name because of my family.
I’m the third born son in a conservative Mormon family. One where everybody is pretty well known because everyone in my family is capable of making friends most places they go. And we all played sports, even me.
I grew up playing baseball and football and stuff, and I was good at it, but everyone already knew me.
Everywhere I go the people in charge have known me as Brandon or Rush’s little brother. I never got to make an impression on my own. Everyone just expected me to be another one of the family. That’s why I quit sports. Because I could never be known or given a real chance because of my family’s reputation.
So when I started writing, I started using a fake name because even in the arts my brothers are somewhat known. At least by the people who were a part of our lives.
Aside from constantly being compared to my brothers and my sister, I come from conservative mormons. I do have some differing beliefs from that, but if I tell people where I come from, more often than not they’re just going to assume that I hate gay people, which is far from the truth seeing as I’m not completely straight myself.
But I’ve always held myself back from doing what I can because I’m always afraid of hearing that same “Oh you’re Rush’s brother?” Or “You’re Mormon? How many wives do you have? Why do you hate gay people?”
I’m worried that those things are going to follow me for the rest of my life, so I use a fake name with only the connotations I give it.
But it does get exhausting trying to keep those things separate. Should I use my real name? Or should I just keep my fake name and publish under that?
can you imagine Oliver having to show up at quidditch trials and say ‘anyone who’s here to try out for seeker better go back up to the castle because an 11 year old boy rode a broom for the first time today and McGonagall gave him the seeker position before asking me or letting me see him play sorry guys’